Sacrificing of the Long John.........

   Today I am saying goodbye to a dear sweet friend.......my chocolate long johns. As you can see, I even and writing in the appropriate colors! LOL So here is how it happened.....I went to BP to get my coffee and donut combo, even though i brought oatmeal from home, and there in the glass cabinet were 3 long johns left. I chose carefully the most Chocolate frosted one they had, and even slightly squeezed it as i grabbed it to reaffirm it was still fresh!
So, i snuck that hot lil long john in my purse AFTER paying for it, and headed to work!
     So here I am, watching people work out and sneaking that crunchy sounding bag into my top right desk drawer! Quickly now! and as it crunched down, I smelled that fried donut smell......such a turn on!!! LOL And then i watched people as they stretched, and realized i have to start sacrifice. But one more couldn't hurt right???? Better yet, was the voice telling me, one more couldn't help either! :/ How bad do you want this? How much do your kids love you? and deserve you around? How will you change at all if you don't sacrifice! How much less of a sacrifice is this than other things in life?!
      Then in walks Ivo....the tall nicely built trainer at my work. A great young man, and I knew a donut wouldn't hurt him, and I knew once it was in his hands, it would never again touch mine. Perfect! Ivo! Here......take this....it's a long john.....I was gonna eat it, but I can't....please take it! I can't! Oh God, it smells so good! Run out the door Ivo! Don't give it back!!! Just take it and run!------------and he did just that. Whether he ate it or not, I have no clue. Truthfully, I don't wanna know.
      I sacrificed the long John. A small sacrifice, but a start, and a rare event for me. Especially something sweet! lol Just one cut on a list of many things that need cutting! So here is my Prayer for today......
         Dear God, Please keep your hand upon me......help me thru these sacrifices great and small, and steer me back into the person you want me to be, the mom the kids need, and be the fullest of my potential! Thank you for all your wonderful blessings......and even though Long Johns taste heavenly, I now know they are not a gift from you, but instead another chain link from hell in my diet. Please help me pop these chains off one by one. Please heal this wounded little girl inside of me, and help me be the woman I know I can be! Amen